i'm in my newest bedroom. with my shutters closed at 7p.m, and i'm feeling amazingly sick. i woke up this morning feeling like crap, and that feeling ain't vanished yet.
i'm in porto since yesterday, and i just went to the supermarket, and to a beach somewhere, i don't remember the name. but since i'm here, i'm feeling more lost than i ever was.
i mean, in the morning i can sleep until late 'cause there's nobody home, but i usualy wake up really soon, so, i spend hours laying in the bed thinking about me, and everything else, and i realized something that he had already told me : i care too much with everybody else more than i care with myself, and with my own problems.
well, i also realized that i fix everybody else's problems because i can't deal with my owns, so i try to distract myself with things that aren't my business.
and i'm kinda done with it because i just keep on getting depressed, and i wanna change!
i wanna be The girl, the one that everyone wants to know, and i want that somebody asks "who is she? she's awesome" because nobody ever said that about me, i wanna be me, but improved.
but these are only thoughts, but they hopefully will be more than that.